Part memoir and part clinical reflection, the book follows psychologist James Spiers through forty years of obsession and compulsion, including five rounds of therapy alongside a career spent helping others navigate similar terrain.

Quirky in tone. Occasionally funny. Sometimes bleak.

It explores:
– Intrusive thoughts around harm and sexual themes
– Health anxiety and catastrophic thinking
– Religious and moral scrupulosity
– Body dysmorphic disorder (BDD)
– Hoarding problems
– Postpartum OCD
– Obsessive-compulsive personality and perfectionism

This is not a motivational recovery story or a self-help manual. It’s about real life and what it’s actually like to live life on repeat.

Written in a non-fiction novel style, it offers a rare glimpse into the obsessive-compulsive experience from both sides of the therapy room.