It’s 1993 and 18-year old plus-sized social misfit Autumn MacLeod knows that parental neglect and rejection have taken a toll on her ability to trust people, but she’s determined to try. The past few years spent training herself to maintain eye contact for more than a few seconds and pushing herself to initiate conversations have yielded positive results so far.

Having accepted her fate as the fat best friend, Autumn doesn’t see it coming when her intellectual curiosity and passion for music catch the attention of John Walker, a kindred spirit she meets at a Phish concert. John can tell right away that Autumn is not like other girls. Not only is his interest in her a shock, so are Autumn's feelings when their long-distance romance suddenly takes an unexpected turn after John disappears without any warning.

With little information to explain what happened with John, Autumn questions not only herself, but the experiences that made her who she is. That journey of self-discovery brings with it the realization that Autumn has been unconsciously prioritizing the emotional safety of the same social isolation from which she yearns to break free.

When John reappears months later pleading for a chance to explain what happened, Autumn will have to choose between that safety and the terrifying prospect of trusting John enough to risk letting him break her heart…again.